[He does look at Steve for that, searching his eyes. He's not looking into his eyes, he's looking at them, searching for the physical signs of honesty.
He frowns and looks away when he's done talking, swallowing. It's hard to see from the video, but he knows Steve's face and he... he knows he's being genuine.
And he's not sure he understands how he's feeling, or the enormity of what Steve's confessing. And he... he has considered the possibility of never remembering everything, and he doesn't like thinking about it.
...he can't do this right now. He can't.
He shakes his head.]
I'm not...
[The person you used to know. The old Bucky.
Worth this.
He's a tool. Created for a purpose. This is more than he can handle. There's too many emotions that he doesn't understand that he shouldn't be feeling at all. Emotions, any emotions, distract from the mission, distract from his purpose.
But what the hell even is his purpose anymore?
He shakes his head again, letting out a soft, desperate, despairing sound, and just... ends the feed.
He can't do this. He doesn't have the capacity for it, the ability to even process it.]
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He frowns and looks away when he's done talking, swallowing. It's hard to see from the video, but he knows Steve's face and he... he knows he's being genuine.
And he's not sure he understands how he's feeling, or the enormity of what Steve's confessing. And he... he has considered the possibility of never remembering everything, and he doesn't like thinking about it.
...he can't do this right now. He can't.
He shakes his head.]
I'm not...
[The person you used to know. The old Bucky.
Worth this.
He's a tool. Created for a purpose. This is more than he can handle. There's too many emotions that he doesn't understand that he shouldn't be feeling at all. Emotions, any emotions, distract from the mission, distract from his purpose.
But what the hell even is his purpose anymore?
He shakes his head again, letting out a soft, desperate, despairing sound, and just... ends the feed.
He can't do this. He doesn't have the capacity for it, the ability to even process it.]