starspangled | Inbox (Eachdraidh)

i'm safe, we all are. nana just called a nine year old 'this bitch' so i figure she's off the wagon right now but beside that we're good. you'd be rushing back to close the gate after the horse bolted. and i appreciate you want to but honestly? selfishly? i'd rather spend the next 2.45 hrs talking to you instead of wishing i could.

what else did you think i'd be doing with that time? we're not cutting the communication until you're in my sight. and then? i'm not letting you out of my sight.

has anyone ever told you you get a little dramatic? ok. if you're sure. ok.

you should hear my scarlett o'hara monologue.

i'm sure.

you should hear my scarlett o'hara accent. so, i kind of hate hospitals.

i can't wait. how will you feel about mine in a brooklyn accent?

do you wanna talk about why?

i don't know, probably the same way i usually feel about your brooklyn accent. does anybody like them? there's just something off about a place nobody visits by choice.

you love it.

i doubt it. my ma went to work in one every day, sometimes double shifts. in the end, that's what got her.

i want to lick it out of your mouth.

{and ok, that's kind of a gear shift. shit.}

she caught something off a patient? god. i'm sorry.

that explains our goodbye kiss.

she died serving others, i don't think she would've had it any other way. i just hope she's as proud of me as i am of her.

i wish i was better at knowing the right thing to say. i guess telling you you could probably claim damages isn't it. i just if something happened to mom bet she'd be proud. though i have to say i like the other ways it sounds like you take after her more than that one.

hey, nothing's going to happen to your mom. i'm going to look into that personally.

what other ways?

you can't be everywhere. i don't expect you to be. and i guess one day something happens to everyone, which i feel ok with most of the time. i think nana had the right idea. nurse, right? and you can't help taking care of people.

i have her eyes too. and maybe her hands. and, from what i was told about my father, her taste in handsome men.

so that's 1, 2, maybe 3 things i'm grateful for.

you should do what i do, start keeping a list.

count my blessings?

you could. that's not exactly what mine is.

1. i'm glad steve didn't meet any handsome men today. except the crowd he works with who p. much look like they were pressed out of ken doll molds... what's yours?

1. the shape of his ears. see what happens if you bite one. gently.

{wow, steve. speechless is not a natural state for him but.

wow, steve.

just give him a minute.}

when did you say eta was, again?

[He told you that his list wasn't exactly like yours.]

under 2 hrs now. gonna meet me at the door?

i took nana out for a smoke, she was picking fights. under 2 hrs is sadly non specific. what happened to the super precise sexy commando thing you were doing when i was too freaked out to appreciate it?

you liked that did you? that's good. you'll appreciate the uniform even more.

one hour, thirty-seven minutes. enough time for your nana to finish the pack.

this is either a really good distraction attempt or you've missed me while you were gone. so your list. cross out gently.

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text; oh no, fire the sniper, you're killing him

text; he also lives to serve!

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